Ever since I was a young girl I have always been self conscious with my body. People may call me crazy on why I've been self conscious. I hear positive things from people about my body and I have heard things such as:
"Aliyah you have a body"
"YOUR LEGS CAN I HAVE THEM"
"People would kill to have your body"
"Aliyah stop it. Your fine"
"Your the definition of slim thick"
"I don't see what you see isn't perfect"
I'm not perfect. Never was perfect. I hear negative things as well like:
"Your thighs are huge"
"You need to start working on them thighs girl"
"I see that gut sticking out. What's going on?"
These quotes come from people that I love dearly and some from old friends and some from complete strangers. Sometimes it can be overbearing. I never really paid attention to my body until I started developing and becoming into a young women and over those years I've heard many compliments and also critiques. I'm not even going to lie it gets to me from time to time because once you hear the criticism all the time you start to realize that something is wrong with you and that is no bueno. At one point in time during the summer of 2011 or 2012 I literally starved myself a whole week straight and guess what.... my stomach literally was in so much pain that I had to lay down a few days and let my body rest due to how the nerves in my body were reacting to such a stupid choice that I made. I realized that I love food and I can't be doing these things to myself and I had to stop worrying about what other people thought on how I look and how my thighs look. My thighs get the most attention from people because, I've always had thick thighs since I was a young baby and they've grown tremendously which triggers people to say things about them which lead me to think my thighs are not ideal. What people don't understand is that when you say something to somebody regarding their body or something that stands out; that stays with the person for the rest of their life. I've learned to love my body over the years due to who I surround myself with and also being inspired by people that went through the same thing. It's okay that you have hips for days and thick thighs; you are who you are for a reason. If you don't like who you are right now then change it but don't change anything about yourself just because you want to be just like those skinny models in the magazine. I've been trying sooooo hard to not fall under the trap of being consumed by the media on how you should look to make people like you even more. Be who you are and stay true to yourself no matter how many times you've been criticized on your body shape and everything else because, that goes to show who really is the insecure one. So hunty you better eat that pizza like a champ and work that body out when you feel like it. As long as your happy and healthy; that's all that matters. Never be ashamed.
xoxo- A
P.S. I have started working out more due to my anxiety that I have so I've been toning up quite a bit and honestly I feel so much better and healthier. The key is to just stay healthy and be positive guys. Love you all xoxo
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